Foooocccuuusssss

March 29, 2009 § 41 Comments

Aim in life: To stay focused.

I need to learn how to sacrifice for my own good and stay focused.

I need to learn how to sacrifice for my own good and stay focused.

I need to learn how to sacrifice for my own good and stay focused.

I need to learn how to sacrifice for my own good and stay focused.

Stupid distractions can go to hell. 😡

[I know if I adopt the above I will be on the path to [what my definition of] successsssssssssssssss!]

Falling In

March 27, 2009 § Leave a comment

Sometimes you slip so bad you have a hard time getting out. A little mistake, a little giving in and you fall so deep that you don’t realise how badly you’ve fallen until you try getting out. But you need to get out – you need to get back. Thining there is no way back is another mistake. Because there always is. Always. Life is complicated, but that is life. If it was simple, we would still complain.

Alas– how ungrateful the human is!

Jumping the Marriage Bandwagon…. Not.

March 22, 2009 § 13 Comments

It seems everyone around me is getting married, including blogger friends. At times there are baby seasons, where every other female I come across is having a baby and then there are marriage seasons where every other person is getting married. Oh – there are divorce seasons too – when almost everyone is going through a divorce.

It’s unsettling – because then the spotlight is on you and all the married matchmakers – including friends – turn traitor on you and try and start hinting on how they know XYZ who would make an ‘absolutetly wonderful husband.’

I don’t know if I’m being cynical or pessimistic or abnormal – but sometimes I wonder – with all the talk about finding the right husband and marriage – is getting married the only purpose in a Womans life? What happened to developing yourself as a person – manners, character, skills, education, learning the religion & refining yourself?

Don’t get me wrong, I’m the last thing from being a feminist – but there needs to be a balance when it comes to a Womans role & Marriage. Although I think part of the problem lies with Women themselves. We need to get past the view that if a Woman isn’t married or is divorced – it’s the end of her World. Sure – do plan on getting married – but don’t make Marriage the existence of your life.

Anyway coming back to the original subject of the post – it isn’t nice being singled out and pressurised. Especially when it’s your best-friend trying to hook you up with her brother. What in the world do you say about that?

Or your Uncle who is trying to hook you up with his Son – and it is so obvious. And the Son? You’ve discussed his girl-friends with him and hes confided in a lot of things he used to do before.

Í’m putting my foot down for a couple of years before I start looking/considering Mr Perfect. I’ve got so many plans – like climbing the Mount Everest and sailing down the Nile. 😛 (I kid.) Realistic plans – like finishing all my education and helping society at large and doing those things that I want to do.

Although I think some of my pessimism stems from the fact that I’ve seen some very close people to me go through some very horrible times and divorces. Marriage is a bucket load of responsibility and no Cindrella. Whenever the talk of marriage and ‘Me’ are mentioned in the same sentence, I tend to feel as if I’ve got a noose around my neck and I’m about to choke.

And I know there are going to be comments about how Mr Perfect doesn’t exist 😛 All I have to say is – it depends on what your definition of ‘Perfect’ is.

Anyway – I’ve got two weddings to attend the following week and surprisingly they’re both absolutely halal. By Halal – I mean segregated. And that in turn means I get to dress up AND show off my clothes. 😛 That also means, that I need to loose the 5 KGS i’ve put on in the last few months. Sigh. [I also need to go shopping for a dress…]

The Woes of Life

March 7, 2009 § 46 Comments

It’s been a long, tiring but beneficial weekend. I’m utterly tuckered out, but would I do it again? Definetely!

I was just looking at my niece a few minutes back, she is 2 years old and I was telling  her she couldn’t have ice-cream because she was ill and hadn’t eaten her dinner. Looking at her made me want to be a child again. Children are so innocent, so carefree. But mostly, they have no responsibility, no accountability. No need to shoulder great burdens or deal with important matters in their lives. While we’re at a personal war with ourselves our whole existance. The tug between good and evil, the decisions, the constant checking of your feet so that they don’t step on the wrong side of the line.

It made me a realise a few not no nice things about me though and I’m hoping I manage to change them before I’m 6 Ft under the ground. Oh the internal struggle!

I’m so tired – and therefore the above might not really make sense because I’m literally falling asleep on my laptop. But who cares. It’s my blog and it’s ok if the only person who understands it is me. 😛

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