‘When will you wake from this slumber?’

February 10, 2010 § 3 Comments

Damsel with a broken foot

February 7, 2010 § 18 Comments

So I broke my foot.

Actually I didn’t, its just a sprain and I felt like saying that. Somehow I managed to twist my foot yesterday. We went to a clinic nearby where they thought it was a fracture and recommended us to go to Rashid Hospital – and they said it wasn’t. So I’m assuming its just a sprain.

I Can barely walk and Ive got it all bandaged – this means I’m stuck at home for a week or so and Im supposed to rest in bed. Which I really can’t do for a whole darned week considering Ive got classes to attend. Nearly ending my course in a month or so and I don’t want to miss out on the last few juzz’ of the Qurán.

On a side note, I’d like to say I absolutely support Women going into the medical field. They make lives for other Women so much easier. Although islamically if it’s a medical reason you can expose the injured bodyparts to a Non-Mehram male for treatment it was utterly embarrasing showing half of my leg to the guy who was bandaging it. He was decent and Muslim – but I was cringing from inside. Sigh.

I guess Ill be more online this week – lets see!

10 Minutes by Ahmed Imamovic – Best Short Film in Europe

January 26, 2010 § Leave a comment

You have to watch this. 10 minutes can mean different things to different people.

Great short movie. What makes it even more interesting/tragic is that this really happened. While the whole Muslim world was going on about their daily business, Parties, Movies, gatherings, people were suffering in Bosnia, waiting for the Muslim Ummah to wake up, respond and stop this in human act of ethnic cleansing. Took long 6 years. Bosnia is still in shock

“And what is the matter with you that you fight not in the cause of Allah and for the oppressed among men, women, and children who say, “O Lord, take us out of this city of oppressive people and appoint for us from Yourself a protector and appoint for us from Yourself a helper”?”
[Al-Quran: Chapter: 4, Verse: 75]

Thursday Ramblings

October 29, 2009 § 24 Comments

I love Thursdays. Thursdays are ‘lets-relax’ days for me, the beginning of the weekend. I usually end up spending Thursday curled in bed with a book or the laptop with a cup of tea catching up with ‘things’ unless I’ve got plans. Anyway, I promised myself a blog post on Thursday and here it is.

Currently nothing majorly interesting is happening in my very uninteresting life, but anyay, if you’re still interested: 😛

  • The IPhone Update

My brother bought me the IPhone 3GS. It’s sleek, its beautiful and if you’re a gadget lover you’ll love this. I’m currently still getting the hang of it and its been distracting me for the past two days. I got the package from Du, but the silly people haven’t activated my SIM yet so I need to go tomorrow morning to get it checked.

  • The health-freak update

Okay, okay, most of you hear me ranting about gaining weight  a lot and probably think, ‘Another of those Women things which women don’t stop talking about’. However, this time I’ve seriously put on a few extra kgs & although being nearly 5’8′ has the advantage of the extra weight not showing, I know its there! In the end, for me its not even about the weight, but more about feeling light and healthy. I hate it when I stop eating healthy, its almost as if I can hear my body groaning.

Been considering the gym again, but i’ve realised there are some obstacles in the way [Like how the Camry isn’t mine yet…] so I’ll leave that. However, my sister and I have started walking in the nearby park though & I’m hoping thats a good start.

  • The Studies update

I finish my 20th Juz of the Qurán on Sunday inshaAllah. That makes it 9 more to go. The more towards the end I come the more I’m freaking out. I’m scared. I haven’t done enough. I don’t want to leave the protected environment I’m currently in.

May Allah subhanna wa ta’ala make it easier for me and give me the tawfique to spread the deen forward. Ameen.

It’ll be to Uni after this & although I’ll be behind two years it really doesn’t matter in the end. Am I looking forward to it? I don’t know anymore… I’ve gotten so used to being among people of the same mentalitiy and the same wave-length that I know it’s going to be a bit difficult to go back into a secular and co-ed environment. That’ll be the real test.

Studying the Qurán is a beautiful inexplainable experience. It’s not something you can describe but something you have to experience on your own. Just the thought that these are the words of Allah azza wa jal, a miracle on its own, tends to affect you.

  • The Marriage update

If anybody else asks me when I’m getting married again, I’m seriously going to loose it. Seriously.

  • Breast-Cancer

This month was Breast Cancer month. Breast Cancer has taken the lives of a lot of Women and Men and its a deadly disease since a lot of Women and Men don’t tend to find out till the end. The Mother of my closest friend who is almost like a Sister to me found out she had breast cancer a couple of months ago. After going through a lot of chemotheraphy treatments she looked a bit better during Ramadan but come Eid she looked utterly tired.

She’d lost her hair and I don’t know why this particular thing caught my attention. Maybe its because older Pakistani Women tend to have long hair and they keep it like that, especially if they’re Mothers/Grandmothers.

After Eid they went to get her check-ups done and found out that her breast cancer had moved to her brain and has been growing there for a while. She went for brain surgery day before yesterday and is currently in the ICU right now.

Please keep her in your duas, the doctors still haven’t said what her survival chances are, but inshaAllah I hope Allah azza wa jal grants her shifa and heals her.

  • The Weather

Coolness is in the air and the winds tease with the promise of coming Winter. I love it when the breeze brushes against me and the leaves rustle when I’m in the garden. It’s not too hot and its pleasantly cool. Sigh. I love this weather.

O Autumn, laden with fruit, and stained
With the blood of the grape, pass not, but sit
Beneath my shady roof; there thou mayest rest
And tune thy jolly voice to my fresh pipe,
And all the daughters of the year shall dance!
Sing now the lusty song of fruits and flowers.


William Blake

And.. thats all for now. 🙂

Provision for divorcees

October 25, 2009 § 8 Comments

A couple of weeks back I had to review Surah Al Baqarah for an assignment I had to submit. More specifically the second Juz’ of the Qurán regarding divorce.

As I was going through it I came across this specific verse that caught my attention.

وَلِلۡمُطَلَّقَـٰتِ مَتَـٰعُۢ بِٱلۡمَعۡرُوفِ‌ۖ حَقًّا عَلَى ٱلۡمُتَّقِينَ

And for divorced women, maintenance (should be provided) on reasonable (scale). This is a duty on Al-Muttaqûn (those who fear Allah). (2:241)

If we ponder upon this verse and more specifically the Arabic of this verse, Allah subhanna wa ta’ala says this is a ‘Haqq’ a religious duty and an obligation for those who fear Allah. [IE – Have taqwa].

One of the conditions of Imaan is to fear Allah subhanna wa ta’ala, no body can claim to be a Muslim and say they don’t fear Allah azza wa jal. However, to actually become one of those who are Muttaqun, you have to have a deep sense and recognition of that fear and be acting upon it.

In this verse, Allah subhanna wa ta’ala is saying that if anyone truly deeply fears Allah, they will provide for divorcees in a reasonable manner. And it should not just be limited to provision but should extend to kindness and dealing with them justly.

Thirdly, this verse is not directed just at the family of the divorcee but the society as a whole. The word, ‘Muttaqun’ is used which is plural.

In our societies this verse is rarely acted upon or much less known. Especially in the Asian region, a divorced Woman is considered the lowest of society and isn’t given her rights. Much less spoken to properly. Although this has been changing over a period of time, it still exists in some Muslim societies.

Two of my Sisters are divorced and I remember when we’d first visted Pakistan after her divorce a relative of ours blatantly pointed her out to another Woman loudly whispering, ‘Look, its her, the one who got divorced’. This was done in public at someone elses wedding we were attending.

This was a long time back, but it still shows the absolute state of ignorance some people are in. When my second Sister was divorced, we heard someone had said that it was a ‘family problem’.

Divorcees rarely get married again and have a stigma attached to them. It’s okay if her husband is abusive and an alcoholic and that going through everyday is hell – but God Forbid she seeks a divorce or he gives it her. As it is, any divorcee, be it Man or Woman has a difficult time dealing with seperation, they also have to deal with the crap from society as well.

Whats deeply saddening is that this view is held by a lot of Muslims, maybe ignorant-about-the-deen Muslims, but Muslims all the same.

If we look at the time of the Prophet sallalahu alayhi wasallam and even during the time of the Sahaaba radi allahu anhum, divorce was a common matter and divorcees weren’t looked down upon. Although it should be used as a last resort, when you’ve exhausted all means to stay married, it still is something you can use which is permitted by Allah subhanna wa ta’ala and the Prophet sallalahu alayhi wasallam.

Anyway, one of the parts of assignment consisted of looking into the iddah period every Woman who is seperated with her husband either through divorce or his death or Khulda. And guess what, its different according to each Woman and her condition. Any fiqh which is related to Women is considerably so much more complicated apparently.

Oh and the person who bad-mouthed my Sister? Sadly, a couple of years later her own daughter got divorced too.

In the end, if only people actually read the Qurán and understood it.

The beginning of the End

October 17, 2009 § 15 Comments

When I first started this Taleem Al-Qurán course nearly a year ago it felt as if I had a lot of time on my hands. A year and a half seemed a long time away but time just tends to fly by.

6 Months & 10 more Juz’ to go.

In the next few days I finish my 19th Juz of the Qurán and that will start my official countdown to the end. I’ve come to realise 6 months isnt a long time, time just tends to fly by and you don’t even realise it.

I’ve come to love studying the Qurán, its Tafseer, come to love my environment, come to love the deep attachment I’ve developed with the Qurán. In the next 6 months I’ll complete the whole Tafseer of the Qurán and Arabic Grammar including some other Fiqhi books bi’idhnillah. I’m so glad I’ve done this course, alhamdulilah, its increased my in knowledge and thought me so many things. I felt as if I was reading the Qurán for the first time in my life although it was a book I’ve opened for so many years with and without translations.

The question that comes to mind is, how many years do we dedicate of our lives studying the beloved book of Allah subhanna wa ta’ala compared to the amount of years we spend studying and earning dunya? How much ilm of our own deen do we have compared to the ilm we strive for of the dunya?

On the day of Judgment the Prophet sallalahu alayhi wasallam will be a witness against those who have left the Qurán wrapped in cloth on their highest shelves and only take it out on weddings or funerals:

وَقَالَ ٱلرَّسُولُ يَـٰرَبِّ إِنَّ قَوۡمِى ٱتَّخَذُواْ هَـٰذَا ٱلۡقُرۡءَانَ مَهۡجُورً۬ا

‘And the Messenger will say: O my Lord! Verily, my people deserted this Qur’ân!’

[Surah Al Furqan – 30]

It’s been a beautiful journey, a journey of light and guidance, a journey of attaining sacred knowledge [although my knowledge is still a drop in the ocean] and love and fear and understanding. A journey of gaining the pleasure of Allah and actually recognising my creator. My only regret is that in these two years that I took off to the study the Qurán is that I didn’t start hifdh side-by-side. I almost feel as if I was cocooned in a protected environment of nothing but goodness.

I’m scared though. I don’t want it to end. I don’t want the sweetness in my heart to die, i don’t want my Imaan to go do low on the scale. And a part of me is afraid, how will I deal with the Qur’an after this? The attractions and attachment of dunya is deadly and so is your own nafs. It’ll be going back to secular education after this, back to a co-ed environment and being caught up with dunya. Maybe not to such a large extent but it won’t be like these moments now.

Seeking and attaining ílm of the deen comes with a responsibility – that of spreading further and secondly, anything you do wrong, after knowing its consequences fully will have double the punishment.

Will I be able to fulfill this responsibility? Will I be able to give the Qurán it’s haqq?

Cheating never had fun consequences

October 14, 2009 § 20 Comments

I’m not a crazy feminist or anything and neither am I very anti-Men, but I came across this on Sheroug’s blog & it really cracked me up. 😛

What I find classically funny are the absolutely happy & full-of-comfort expressions on their faces.

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