Currently Reading

February 12, 2010 § 2 Comments

I’m currently reading Censoring an Iranian Love Story by Shahriar Mandanipour – probably the romantic in me. It was greatly recommended by a friend and is also one of the picks of a bookclub I’m part off.

I’ve just started it today and it’s already gripped me. A story of two people falling in love in political Iran & the difficulties in writing and publishing. Check it out if you can!

A review that I came upon:

From one of Iran’s most accomplished and controversial contemporary writers, his first novel to appear in English—a dazzlingly inventive work of fiction: two powerful narratives, seamlessly entwined, that open a revelatory window into what it’s like to live, to love, and to be an artist in today’s Iran.

The author’s fictional alter ego, who bears his name, has spent years struggling to publish in Iran, reluctantly bending his work to the will of the all-powerful censor at the Ministry of Culture and Islamic Guidance. But now Shahriar faces his greatest challenge yet: to write a bewitching love story, set in the present, in Iran.

He writes about beautiful Sara and fiercely proud Dara, who, forbidden by the state from being alone together, pass encoded messages in the pages of their favorite books, and meet in secret amid the bustling streets, Internet cafés, and private gardens of Tehran. But writing of their encounters, their desires, puts Shahriar in as much danger as his Iranian Romeo and Juliet. Can Sara and Dara’s love survive? Will the Ministry issue Shahriar a publishing permit? The answers are as shocking as they are unexpected.

Laced with humor and irony, at once provocative and deeply moving, Censoring an Iranian Love Story is a triumph of art and spirit.


Damsel with a broken foot

February 7, 2010 § 18 Comments

So I broke my foot.

Actually I didn’t, its just a sprain and I felt like saying that. Somehow I managed to twist my foot yesterday. We went to a clinic nearby where they thought it was a fracture and recommended us to go to Rashid Hospital – and they said it wasn’t. So I’m assuming its just a sprain.

I Can barely walk and Ive got it all bandaged – this means I’m stuck at home for a week or so and Im supposed to rest in bed. Which I really can’t do for a whole darned week considering Ive got classes to attend. Nearly ending my course in a month or so and I don’t want to miss out on the last few juzz’ of the Qurán.

On a side note, I’d like to say I absolutely support Women going into the medical field. They make lives for other Women so much easier. Although islamically if it’s a medical reason you can expose the injured bodyparts to a Non-Mehram male for treatment it was utterly embarrasing showing half of my leg to the guy who was bandaging it. He was decent and Muslim – but I was cringing from inside. Sigh.

I guess Ill be more online this week – lets see!

I hate you WordPress, I do.

January 26, 2010 § 5 Comments

I hate you WordPress, I do. More specifically I hate you and not org. I can’t do anything with you that I want to! I’m never satisfied with your themes. You were supposed to be the answer to my prayers and be my last blog.

I’m disappointed in myself, I haven’t written anything worthwhile in a quite a … while. See? I’m using two same words in one sentence. That is considered bad English. Sure, you might have a gorgeous interface and everything else amazing, but when it comes to the themes department you suck. Terribly.

I miss blogger. A lot. 😦


[Would you all kill me for shifting back to blogger? *innocent*]


November 4, 2009 § 17 Comments

I know, I know. Doing it a lot. I’m barely getting time these days, not to mention the time I *do* get I spend lazing around to catching up on lost sleep.

Haven’t been replying to the comments or checking blog posts – my sincere apologies.

Updates? Na da.

Except for went out with a  few friends of mine after a while, it felt good catching up. 🙂

My very petite, tiny, blonde friend bought a gigantic Tundra truck. Lol, I am UTTERLY fascinated by it. Not to mention, she looks funny driving it. 😛 I don’t know how she does it. At first I asked her if it was her husbands but she confirmed it was hers.

This is what a Tundra Truck looks like:

But driving such a car in Dubai, just makes people get out of your way. 😛 Although I’d hate parking in that beautiful monster.

Thursday Ramblings

October 29, 2009 § 24 Comments

I love Thursdays. Thursdays are ‘lets-relax’ days for me, the beginning of the weekend. I usually end up spending Thursday curled in bed with a book or the laptop with a cup of tea catching up with ‘things’ unless I’ve got plans. Anyway, I promised myself a blog post on Thursday and here it is.

Currently nothing majorly interesting is happening in my very uninteresting life, but anyay, if you’re still interested: 😛

  • The IPhone Update

My brother bought me the IPhone 3GS. It’s sleek, its beautiful and if you’re a gadget lover you’ll love this. I’m currently still getting the hang of it and its been distracting me for the past two days. I got the package from Du, but the silly people haven’t activated my SIM yet so I need to go tomorrow morning to get it checked.

  • The health-freak update

Okay, okay, most of you hear me ranting about gaining weight  a lot and probably think, ‘Another of those Women things which women don’t stop talking about’. However, this time I’ve seriously put on a few extra kgs & although being nearly 5’8′ has the advantage of the extra weight not showing, I know its there! In the end, for me its not even about the weight, but more about feeling light and healthy. I hate it when I stop eating healthy, its almost as if I can hear my body groaning.

Been considering the gym again, but i’ve realised there are some obstacles in the way [Like how the Camry isn’t mine yet…] so I’ll leave that. However, my sister and I have started walking in the nearby park though & I’m hoping thats a good start.

  • The Studies update

I finish my 20th Juz of the Qurán on Sunday inshaAllah. That makes it 9 more to go. The more towards the end I come the more I’m freaking out. I’m scared. I haven’t done enough. I don’t want to leave the protected environment I’m currently in.

May Allah subhanna wa ta’ala make it easier for me and give me the tawfique to spread the deen forward. Ameen.

It’ll be to Uni after this & although I’ll be behind two years it really doesn’t matter in the end. Am I looking forward to it? I don’t know anymore… I’ve gotten so used to being among people of the same mentalitiy and the same wave-length that I know it’s going to be a bit difficult to go back into a secular and co-ed environment. That’ll be the real test.

Studying the Qurán is a beautiful inexplainable experience. It’s not something you can describe but something you have to experience on your own. Just the thought that these are the words of Allah azza wa jal, a miracle on its own, tends to affect you.

  • The Marriage update

If anybody else asks me when I’m getting married again, I’m seriously going to loose it. Seriously.

  • Breast-Cancer

This month was Breast Cancer month. Breast Cancer has taken the lives of a lot of Women and Men and its a deadly disease since a lot of Women and Men don’t tend to find out till the end. The Mother of my closest friend who is almost like a Sister to me found out she had breast cancer a couple of months ago. After going through a lot of chemotheraphy treatments she looked a bit better during Ramadan but come Eid she looked utterly tired.

She’d lost her hair and I don’t know why this particular thing caught my attention. Maybe its because older Pakistani Women tend to have long hair and they keep it like that, especially if they’re Mothers/Grandmothers.

After Eid they went to get her check-ups done and found out that her breast cancer had moved to her brain and has been growing there for a while. She went for brain surgery day before yesterday and is currently in the ICU right now.

Please keep her in your duas, the doctors still haven’t said what her survival chances are, but inshaAllah I hope Allah azza wa jal grants her shifa and heals her.

  • The Weather

Coolness is in the air and the winds tease with the promise of coming Winter. I love it when the breeze brushes against me and the leaves rustle when I’m in the garden. It’s not too hot and its pleasantly cool. Sigh. I love this weather.

O Autumn, laden with fruit, and stained
With the blood of the grape, pass not, but sit
Beneath my shady roof; there thou mayest rest
And tune thy jolly voice to my fresh pipe,
And all the daughters of the year shall dance!
Sing now the lusty song of fruits and flowers.

William Blake

And.. thats all for now. 🙂

The beginning of the End

October 17, 2009 § 15 Comments

When I first started this Taleem Al-Qurán course nearly a year ago it felt as if I had a lot of time on my hands. A year and a half seemed a long time away but time just tends to fly by.

6 Months & 10 more Juz’ to go.

In the next few days I finish my 19th Juz of the Qurán and that will start my official countdown to the end. I’ve come to realise 6 months isnt a long time, time just tends to fly by and you don’t even realise it.

I’ve come to love studying the Qurán, its Tafseer, come to love my environment, come to love the deep attachment I’ve developed with the Qurán. In the next 6 months I’ll complete the whole Tafseer of the Qurán and Arabic Grammar including some other Fiqhi books bi’idhnillah. I’m so glad I’ve done this course, alhamdulilah, its increased my in knowledge and thought me so many things. I felt as if I was reading the Qurán for the first time in my life although it was a book I’ve opened for so many years with and without translations.

The question that comes to mind is, how many years do we dedicate of our lives studying the beloved book of Allah subhanna wa ta’ala compared to the amount of years we spend studying and earning dunya? How much ilm of our own deen do we have compared to the ilm we strive for of the dunya?

On the day of Judgment the Prophet sallalahu alayhi wasallam will be a witness against those who have left the Qurán wrapped in cloth on their highest shelves and only take it out on weddings or funerals:

وَقَالَ ٱلرَّسُولُ يَـٰرَبِّ إِنَّ قَوۡمِى ٱتَّخَذُواْ هَـٰذَا ٱلۡقُرۡءَانَ مَهۡجُورً۬ا

‘And the Messenger will say: O my Lord! Verily, my people deserted this Qur’ân!’

[Surah Al Furqan – 30]

It’s been a beautiful journey, a journey of light and guidance, a journey of attaining sacred knowledge [although my knowledge is still a drop in the ocean] and love and fear and understanding. A journey of gaining the pleasure of Allah and actually recognising my creator. My only regret is that in these two years that I took off to the study the Qurán is that I didn’t start hifdh side-by-side. I almost feel as if I was cocooned in a protected environment of nothing but goodness.

I’m scared though. I don’t want it to end. I don’t want the sweetness in my heart to die, i don’t want my Imaan to go do low on the scale. And a part of me is afraid, how will I deal with the Qur’an after this? The attractions and attachment of dunya is deadly and so is your own nafs. It’ll be going back to secular education after this, back to a co-ed environment and being caught up with dunya. Maybe not to such a large extent but it won’t be like these moments now.

Seeking and attaining ílm of the deen comes with a responsibility – that of spreading further and secondly, anything you do wrong, after knowing its consequences fully will have double the punishment.

Will I be able to fulfill this responsibility? Will I be able to give the Qurán it’s haqq?

I've Shifted… :)

August 13, 2009 § Leave a comment

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